denial-me

I had to clean my flat yesterday and to make it more fun I included a friends with domifits to spice it up. 

I told him that I had been orgasm free for more than 3 weeks and pretty pent up. Sure I do about 1 ruin a week, but those didn't count yet. 

He made me edge 3 times, once for every week without orgasm and afterwards he ordered me to put in my lovense toy. 

I was far too sensitive to safely use any vaginal to and therefore we used my hush vibrating anal-plug. 

He controlled it while I cleaned my bathroom.

I hadn't played anally for quite a while and so it was really odd at first. 

The vibrations made me feel strange but soon it turned into a specific tingle. 

I felt the vibrations emanate through my hole lower body. And soon I was gyrating my hips and trying to grind something. 

My wife shorts didn't bring a lot of stimulation to the table and even though I was dripping into them, cumming was off the table. 

Once I finished my bathroom I was a quivering mess.

My hands were shaking, my knees weak and I was blushed. 

It felt as if I had cum, but my arousal and lust was clearly just bigger than before. 

Had I cum from anal? 

I told him how I felt and he made me tease again, putting a bullet vibe in my pussy and making me play with my clit. 

I was on the edge almost immediately. My juices rushing and making my fingers slippery. 

I asked him if I could cum, begged him for it. 

After using the edge for what felt like minutes he finally told me I could cum and I did. 

And then there was the drop. I thanked Dom, told him that I needed a moment, he asked me how I was but it was long distance so there was nothing he could do. 

I paused. 

The burn was gone, the deep desire in my groins. 

A strange stability was robbed from me. 

I felt bad. I laid down in bet for a bit, put on a podcast and cried a little. 

I had never felt like that from a ruin before. They were only taking the edge off for a moment and not longer. 

I think orgasms are bad for me. I shouldn't cum anymore. 

Maybe a long-term relationship Dom might change that but right now? 

No! Cumming is bad! A punishment even! And I should stay a horny, needy denial-toy.